Thursday, January 8, 2015

A new year

Awaiting college acceptances for both grad and undergrad. Fingers crossed for both son and daughter. Exciting and anxious times. The holidays were full and joyous, counting our blessings.

Friday, September 5, 2014

Suddenly September

This was an interesting summer this year between college visits and our summer vacation to the outer banks sans my son. He was offered a summer research opportunity studying Dark stars or something in that vein...studying the age of a star, I believe. He explains, I listen attentively, but suffice to say my astrophysics is subpar. Though I was excited for him, I also missed the family not being together as we usually are each and every summer. Things are changing, evolving, my children on that interesting cusp of becoming more and I love it and loathe it. My son is 21 this past August, my daughter will be 18 in February. It is all about GREs for my son and graduate school, and SATs and ACTs and common app for my daughter. It is exciting and stressful and I want them to be happy, to have joy, as well as, tremendous accomplishments, and peace. I am an older parent. I don't feel as such, but numbers can't be denied. My hope for the future is simple or simply to just be together as family. The idea of one day being a grandmother is surreal for a woman who still looks at life through youthful eyes, though a bit myopic and ringed a bit darker from day to day tribulations. My daughter spoke to me about her teacher telling the students they were in their prime, but soon their bodies will ache and their heads will be balding, and they will all get older. I laughed, but then had to smile when she turned to me and said, but you're not old like that are you? I try not to be, I replied. I get down often, I have had loss, I sometimes want to just hide away, but after telling my daughter my wish of being there for them for many more years and hoping for grandchildren, she again stunned me when she said you value life. So succinct, so simple. So true.
I wanted to share this quote: Faith is for that which lies on the other side of reason. Faith is what makes life bearable, with all its tragedies and ambiguities and sudden, startling joy. -- Madeline L'Engle

Friday, February 7, 2014

Happy Birthday, Baby Girl!

I see myself in you 
A reflection of temperament 
So alike
That we are often
A force so powerful
A thunderous roar
A storm
But so sweet
In its aftermath
Always love
Tender and light
A need to be embraced
And I do
Even in those 
Dark places
Of drama and angst
Because there will always be joy
Tremendous, spontaneous 
You are the gift of my heart, my soul
Though one was taken before you
I was not forsaken
You are my light
You are wishes come true
You are love
You are in the simplest form of all things
Life's hope

I cherish you!

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Gettysburg Weekend 2013

I love the worm rail fences.  In the first photo, Gettysburg College is in the background.  My son is in his junior year majoring in Astrophysics.  My daughter is a senior in high school and will soon be college bound.  It is a glorious, albeit, bittersweet thing.  I treasure these days together.

Thursday, December 19, 2013

This brings me joy

 Little surprises outside my door, breathtaking sunsets, creativity, puppy love, and most especially my children.